Living in pain every minute, every day.

 My name is Tony.  That is the easy bit to write, now I have to tell you that this life is not an easy one for me.  Living day to day is not easy and to keep me moving and trying to get through every minute I take large doses of morphine and other tablets to help keep me going.  And I have to admit, suicide is always on my mind as there is NO relief from it.  I live on anything from 150mg to 200mg of morphine a day.  That is a lot of morphine and it has long term consequences on your mind and health.